all by myself

ingatkan susah senang kita ni akan selalu dikongsi bersama teman, sahabat or saudara mara. kalau tak tolong pun mungkin hanya sebagai tempat mengadu. tapi ternyata bila dah kena badan sendiri baru la tau siapa teman , sahabat, rakan and saudara yang sejati. mother sekarang ni terlantar dekat hospital suspect lung cancer but still pending confirmation from lab.stressnya bukan kepalang mana tidaknya adik beradik 2 org saja, tinggal pun berjauhan bila cuti or weekend baru dpt tolong me jaga mom. satu persatu masalah yang timbul. ada pulak tu pakcik GILa yang tak bagi org2 yg sewa rumah me lalu dekat tepi rumah dia. goshhh YA ALLAH..aku pasrah dengan apa yg engkau berikan.baik yang buruk maupun yang baik. aku bermohon kehadratMU sembuhkan la ibuku..

i really wish i run my own business rite now, cos am kinda bored really really bored with my current work. i hate everything about my work now.i cannot click with my bos..i am totally 100% hate my job now. but i dun want to change or quit my job and after working for another company. because i knw i will be getting the same feeling like what i felt now..boring!!!

i want to run my very own business. i like fashion so much so i was thinking to sale something..mayb for a started i can sell clothing or accesories online..promote my things to my frens or my family.. insyallah i believe i can do it!!!

Kinda bored at d ofic.

Peace

counting the day to come...

I’m about 2 months and 15days away from turning 32 yrs old. Now I realize life is too short.I’ve been thinking a lot about the kind of girl I used to be, all the cool things I’ve seen and done, as well as all the stupid mistakes I’ve made that have ended up hurting myself and others close to me.


I look back my past life and I can’t help but ask myself- have I grown up? Am I the person I wanted to become? Am I where I should be in terms of my character and my career? We live in a society that demands we achieves as much as we can, as fast as we can. But what happens if we don’t? What if life takes us in difference direction, somewhere we weren’t expecting to ever go? What then? Still remembber, when I finally got out of school and started working, I was stunned by how ambitious I was how badly I wanted to succeed and how far I was willing to go to achieve success. When you’re just beginning to build your career, you have a lot of zeal. Everything is about doing well & making money.

It’s a very blind period in one’s life, I feel. Most of the times you don’t notice a lot of things because you’re so focused on putting yourself out there, its like tunnel- vision. And because you’re so in the thick of everything, because you keep pushing to get where you want to be, it isn’t until much, much later that you start to see all the cracks in the systems, all the chinks in the armor,
All the things you sacrificed to get where you are.

Should i feel ashamed? What if, a little over a year from now, I wake up only to find myself still not rich and still not married? I suppose this is where the: as long as you’re happy” saying comes into play. But this isn’t necessarily about you think.what about your family? Families always say they want what’s best for their children and they mean it. In fact, I’d say that’s probably the most directly honest thing you will ever hear your parents say to you. They want what’s best because they love you.The reason they drive this point home is because the alternative isn’t worth thinking about. From childhood, we are brought up to believe success equals happiness, and that one rarely exists without the other.Ideally, when my 32 birthday swings around, I should have a solid life, be married to a nice husband, hopefully.